Saturday was “one of those days.”
My husband and I spent the day on various to-dos: dealing with my dead car battery, sharpening the lawn mower blades, taking care of some health needs. A little grumpy and tired from the long week, we set out on our errands.
And everywhere we turned, we didn’t get what we wanted.
Car battery? Oops, someone forgot to put the charger on; come back in an hour.
Lapping compound? Nope. #2 File? Not in stock.
Exercise balls? Not sure where they are.
Allergy medicine? Sorry, has to be requested at the pharmacy, and the pharmacy is closed.
Have you ever had a day like that?!?
As we drove away from the pharmacy, Andy said “I feel like I’ve spent this day going from door to door, expecting treats and instead getting a bag full of rocks.”
We’d recently watched “It’s the Great Pumpkin, Charlie Brown!” and now we felt like we were living it. Charlie Brown is depressed but determined, wanting to believe he will get what he wants (in this case, candy) yet not really believing he’s worth it (and therefore getting rocks). Whether having the football pulled away at the last minute or berating Linus for waiting for The Great Pumpkin (“You must be crazy! When are you going to stop believing in something that isn’t true?“), Charlie Brown is conflicted, desperate to believe and consistently disappointed.
Did our grumpy energy on Saturday have anything to do with being handed rock after rock? Maybe, maybe not. We believed the day would go smoothly, despite our mood; however, our mood grew darker as we felt like the universe was conspiring against us.
Our energy creates a field around us that attracts or repels. For me, collecting too many rocks is a sure sign that my energy is low, that I’m attached to the solution looking a certain way, or I’m forgetting to trust that “all is well, and all will be well.” It’s another lesson related to last week’s message about releasing attachment to agendas and outcomes.
So, next time life hands me rocks and I expect candy, I’m going to shift my energy and make rock candy!
What is your most dominant energy? How are you affected by the energy of those around you? What supports you in shifting your energy from low to high? What gives you energy? What drains you?